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Boycott Dolce and Gabbanna

Current Events, Random Fun Stuff, Surrogacy By March 17, 2015 Tags: , , , , , , , No Comments

Apparrently two rich fashion dudes said some really offensive stuff about IVF, LGBTQ parenting, and surrogacy, and understandably a lot of people are pissed. Elton John has called for a boycott of all their products, which I would gladly join in on (as one of the so called “rented uteruses” they referred to), but I cannot afford Dolce and Gabbanna stuff anyhow.

Here’s what I can do. I notice a lot of celebrities saying they are going to burn or throw away their D&G stuff, so that no one ever wears them. I get that, if they donate the clothes, other people will wear them and anyone wearing the clothes is a walking advertisement for them. But please, don’t take this opportunity to waste resources, further stuff our landfills, and create air pollution. Instead, send your old D&G items to me! I will cut them up and make rag rugs out of them! And possibly Halloween decorations. And maybe some other crafty stuff. The point is, I will make sure they never get worn again, without contributing to waste. Huzzah!

Anyone who wants to send me their junk D&G clothes (and whatever other products they make, I don’t know, shoes? Purses? We can destroy those too in fun, non wasteful ways. My kids are very creative.) drop me a line. I will gladly take that stuff off your hands and repurpose it into something that is actually nice.


Surrogacy update: We have one baby

Surrogacy By November 21, 2014 Tags: , , , , , , , , , , No Comments


We’ve had two ultrasounds so far. We have a heart beat and growth right on schedule. And we just have one baby.

The biggest question on everyone’s mind since I got my positive test has been “Now how many are in there?” Even though I only had two blastocysts put in me, some people theorized there could even be three or four, after all, couldn’t fertilized eggs split into identical twins? I was pretty sure the blastocysts were past the point where that was possible when they put them in, but people still questioned. It’s been a load off to know for sure that it’s just one baby.

Not that I would have been upset about twins. There was even a part of me that hoped for it. But ultimately, one baby is preferable to multiples. One baby will likely mean an easier pregnancy with less risk of complications. It makes my chances of needing a cesarean lower, and my chances of being able to get pregnant again with my own baby within a year after this one more likely.

The pregnancy so far has been much like my others. I’ve had a little bit of very mild nausea, quite a bit of fatigue, a little brain fogginess, and some irritability. Unlike my other pregnancies, however, I have not gained anything yet. I’ve maybe even lost some. Both with Elijah and Freja I gained a significant amount of weight in the first trimester, 15 to 20 pounds, approximately. That’s each time! Not surprisingly, I gained much more weight than is typically average with each pregnancy, 80 lbs total with Elijah, and 50 lbs total with Freja. And after having easy pregnancies, easy births, and very healthy babies, I firmly believe I gained that weight because I needed to in order to be healthy. Before getting pregnant with both Elijah and Freja I had spent significant amounts of time dieting, forcing my weight down as far as I could. In fact, before having gotten pregnant with Elijah, I was dieting so chronically I was likely nutrient deficient and in pretty poor shape, health wise. And each time, when I had to give up dieting upon getting pregnant, I packed the weight back on so fast it would make a lot of people’s heads spin. Which really should come as no surprise, research shows that most dieters, when forced to resume normal eating habits (or in my case with both my kids, go from a very calorically reduced diet to a just slightly calorically reduced diet), will pack the weight back on, sometimes even more than they started with. This time, I have been practicing intuitive eating, focusing only on trying to get in more nutrient dense foods. I have not counted calories or carbs or fat or anything like that at all, I have just eaten what felt right and tried to make sure I was getting in as many nutrient dense foods as possible, and golly gee, it’s the first time I’m gaining weight exactly like the experts say you should. Not that everyone will have the same results as I am, every person’s body is different. Even my body was different in my two previous pregnancies, it needed to put on weight, and nothing I did, not restricting food in my first pregnancy, or staying very active in my second, could stop that from happening. But I do believe strongly that if you trust your body it will take the best care of you it can. Your body has a pretty good self preservation instinct. Generally speaking, it wants to live.

I have felt I’m on the downhill slide of the first trimester yuckies, which I know already is not as bad for me as it tends to be for most other women. There has been one bummer in all of this, and that’s that the placenta has possible placental lakes in it. Placental lakes are pools of blood that form in the placenta, and are very common in the second and third trimester, but less so in the first. It could be nothing, and I tend to think that’s most likely the case, but it could indicate possible growth restriction. Because baby has been growing right on schedule, I’m choosing not to be too concerned. I know this practice deals with a lot of very high risk stuff, as their normal day to day, and that can give people a skewed view of seeing variances in pregnancy. However, they have recommended, as a safety precaution, that I take it extra easy and not do any heavy lifting at all. And their idea of heavy lifting is much lighter than mine. I’m not even supposed to lift Freja! Also, no sex, and no exercise. This is a major bummer for me, but I will definitely follow instructions. I think it’s probably nothing, but just in case, I’m going to be careful. I was annoyed that the nurse practitioner who told me about this talked like lifting and exercise restrictions would be good news for me. Some women aren’t actually looking for ways to get out of doing as much work as possible. And some people actually don’t find it easier to have to wait to get their husband to lift anything heavier than ten pounds for them. Some women enjoy a variety of physical activities and sex, and aren’t relieved when told they can’t do those activities. I’d venture to guess, in fact, that this is the case for most women.

But I have been released now to get care with a care provider of my choosing, and I will be choosing a midwife, so long as my pregnancy is low risk. Midwifery care is just better for me. It is more attentive, less alarmist, and more personal than OB care, in general. Of course, it all depends on the midwife, and the OB, but this is my experience. Some people prefer the more medicalized care of an OB. They feel all the tests make it more personalized, and that’s cool. I think more time spent developing a relationship makes midwifery care more personal, and that’s what I prefer. However, because this is not a totally normal pregnancy, I will be getting both treatments, the tests and the midwifery atmosphere, and I’m okay with that. Generally, in my own pregnancies, I prefer to reduce the tests to a degree, sometimes too much information isn’t actually helpful, it leads to false assumptions of risk and a lot of unnecessary stress, but I understand why it’s needed this time. There is a time and a place for everything, of course. I’m just glad I get to have midwifery care as well.

Stay tuned for more updates!



Surrogacy update: results

Surrogacy By October 21, 2014 Tags: , , , , , , , No Comments
How do you think this one is going to turn out?

How do you think this one is going to turn out?

Did you know that invitro fertilization is only about 40% effective in the best circumstances? That’s about a 60% potential for failure, even if you have the best possible chances for success. And many people say it almost never works the first time. That the first time is really just when doctors and patients get to know what works and increases their chances of success.


Surrogacy update: ovulation, estrogen, and calendars

Surrogacy By September 23, 2014 Tags: , , , , , , , , 1 Comment


So many things can happen to change the timeline of a surrogacy. When we first embarked on this journey, we knew we’d have to wait until it had been a year since my last tattoo, three months since I weaned Freja, and then we had to do testing and contracts and all that kind of stuff. All in all, it’s been over a year we’ve been waiting to get started with all of this, and now here we are.


Surrogacy update: Giving myself shots

Surrogacy By September 10, 2014 Tags: , , , , , , , No Comments


In preparation for carrying the baby I’m about to carry, I have to take a boat load of medications. The first one was the birth control pill, which we used to manipulate my cycle into the right place to suit our schedule. It had been so long since I used birth control pills, I had forgotten what it felt like to be on them! Or maybe, because I started them when I was so young, I never knew that how I felt wasn’t normal.


Big news on the homestead!

Surrogacy By September 3, 2014 Tags: , , , , , No Comments

Today I am excited to announce to you all a new venture we will be working on here at the Rocking Homestead. I have decided to serve as a gestational carrier for an amazing family I have gotten to know and love over the past year.

Pregnancy has always come easy for me. I wasn’t even trying when I got pregnant with Elijah, in fact, I was actively not trying to get pregnant! It took very little trying to get pregnant with Freja. And once I was pregnant, my pregnancies have been exceptionally smooth. No serious complications, and only a few of the common complaints that most pregnant women have. I even have had fairly easy births, as births go. With all this ease, I have felt strongly that I would like to give back to people who have not had it as easy.

When I first started looking into this, I figured I would be working with a gay couple, hopefully locally. I met the family I would be working with through a friend of a friend, and they were nothing like what I imagined. They were a straight couple, who had already had two other babies through two other surrogacies. More than that, they were not local, they didn’t even live in the US! They lived in Paris, though the mom was from here, originally, and much of her family still lived here in Denver. Even though they were different than what I had imagined, I clicked with them immediately and knew I wanted to work with them. They are an amazing family.

I feel really good and excited about helping them to complete their family. As a birth doula, I sort of see this as the ultimate doulaing experience. It’s giving me a whole new perspective on and appreciation for pregnancy, and what lengths people go to to make their families. There are lots of different roads to family, and I am honored to be able to help people walk their road in any way I can.

I want to share this journey here, because I think it’s pretty cool and interesting. The process of making a life is so miraculous and mysterious, it’s really amazing what all can be done to help families achieve their dreams. I look forward to sharing this journey with you all!